Monday morning (ok, monday LATE night / tue EARLY morning)

SH*T its 1:20! i hope the silly driver who is _ALWAYS_ late is late today too.
1:26 - Madam hum neeche khada hai.

~what the f*ck!~ the many drivers my company has seen fit to employ have never, and i do mean NEVER, _EVER_, thought it was a good idea to turn up on time. n today, the one day that i wasn't ready, he stupid chump had decided to turn up BEFORE time?!? *%#$#@#$# !!
my feet scarcely touched terra firma for the next few mins.

2:00 ~hurtling toward a colleague's place~ *ring* ~glancing skeptically at my cell - it was two in the morning!~
Hello?

Hiiii there..

Wait…lemme play this out in the way its re run is playing in my head.

Hmmm

Murphy said.. everything that can go wrong will.
Pramila says everything that can go wrong will.. and then the things that CAN’T, will.

Thursday morning
1:30 a.m : the car is here! Surprisingly on time. (oh of course, I hadn’t eaten thanks to getting up later then was normal. Obviously the car will be here at 1:30 dot)

2:00 while stuffing my face *ring*... Oh he actually got up to call!?

Hello?

“hey sweetypie whatchya doing…”

Going to office.. how did you call!?

“kept an alarm. Said I’d call you at 2.00 didn’t I”

Déjà vu

Flash of a past, a long forgotten. Glimpse of a memory deeply buried. Buried if not by time, then by tears.
Broken dreams. Broken promises.

“hey jhallie, whatz you doing”

“Duffer???”

why, how, what…

WHAT would induce a person, irrespective of their plumbing (this to the daft chaps = gender!) to become SO close to a person that one claims to feel “complete” only when “around” that person…
…wake up with GREAT difficulty… just so you can wake that someone else up… because you find their sleep drenched voice cute.
…get away from enjoyable evenings with friends, so that you can be glued to the phone. Long distance at that.
…be so completely yourself with, that you realize certain facets / feelings never surfaced before being with that someone.
…sing someone to sleep. And continue singing much after that person has gone to sleep. Till you fall asleep, with the phone on. Long distance again.
...BE with someone. While they took their parent to the doctor. On the phone. For HOURS. So that you could make up not ‘being’ there.
…swallow your pride. Even if its something you have never done before. Totally give up having an “ego” for that matter.
…say that one has NO romantic feelings what so ever.
Then say you want “time to figure out whether i want you in my life or need you in my life”
“either ways, I will come back. This is just something I need to do”

and then never come back. Ever.

What?

About the blog event / secret santa / smiles across miles….
Here is the list so far (Incase I have left out anyone who has previously sent me his/her acceptance mail, with your postal address…please send me a reminder mail (and my apologies in advance)

1 Suhail Kassim
2 Hima
3 Nishant
4 Prem
5 Ellen Johnson
6 Kiran Murthy
7 Clarissa Alvares
8 Vanita Negandhi
9 Nicholas Moroder
10 Emily Turimouw
11 Shainu Varghese
12 Paul Was
13 Justin Corwin
14 Happy Lee Del Canto
15 Meenakshi Reddy Madhavan (Mynna)
16 Vikas (office)
17 Miss Swizz
18 Ashish Dange (Ashtrix)
19 EnJay (Hima’s pal)
20 Leslee Carton (ellen's pal)
21 Sumi Daniel (office)
22 Urmila
23 Manish Vohra
24 Ocean Ace
25 Vignesh Ganesan
26 Dr. Neil J. Armstrong
27 Richard Dixon
28 Peenut (mily's friend)
29 Nidhi Ramachandran
30 Kadir Rathnavelu
31 Meave
32 Grey Rose
33 Pramila Padmanabhan

for those of you who wish to join in / want a friend to join in… please do so by the end of this week. The site should most probably be up and running by this weekend. Please log in by the beginning of the next week and select your giftee by the end of the next week.
note : those of you who accepted in principle - via comments - but didn't send me an email, do NOT feature on the list. Only people who sent EMAILS _with_ postal addresses have been listed. If you are reading this and notice your name missing - send me an email at - pramila@gmail.com - pronto!

For those of you who have written but weren't from the blog ring and didn't have anyone to vouch for you either, I'm honestly tempted to include you, I AM! but the catch is, its not just my trust I would be placing in you... one of the 32 people listed above might be selected as your giftee and will be awaiting their mystery gift... can't have them getting disappointed 'cause of my error in judgement - this does NOT imply that you will default.. or that the ones who have been accepted will definitely not default, just that the chances of them defaulting is marginally slimmer :o)
hope you understand... and if all goes well... round two should happen sometime soon... especially now that i have jumped in with both feet and purchased server space for 3 years!! TWO whole GBs of space at that!!! yup, don't ever do anything in small measures! :D - so now you know why those donations are solicited.
click here to go to SMILES ACROSS MILES

p.s : please understand i am calling it donations because thats just what they are, D O N A T I O N S. none of you are obligated to donate..

psstttt, people who want to donate can simply click on the button on the side bar which says donate - am working on getting a "verified" thingy too... so any generous yet wary souls out there who want to donate but would like to do so after that can do so next week!
thank-you JDB for being the 1st one to donate - especially when i need to repay u! u r the very BESTEST! EVER!!!